To trust God is to know who he is for you. It was always easy for me to believe with great faith that God would help others. The real challenge came in believing his goodness for myself. Every time I would walk to the alter of surrender, God would take me deeper into that place of trust.
He allowed a storm to come into my life that brought me into a new level of dependence on him. Its very easy to say that we trust God, but when it the fire causes the water to boil, trusting God’s plans to be good for us can be an excruciating challenge.
It was very hard for me to believe that God would be good to me, because he allowed a terrible pain to touch my life. In 2012 God revealed himself to me through an encounter that forever changed me. He started to show me his plans for my life and awakened my spirit.
Then the road curved in the most unexpected way. My husband started an affair that lasted over 17 months and he left me. I was broken and covered in dirt. Nothing made sense anymore. My cries soon shook my body like an earth quake. After every prayer that I prayed, God said just to love him. I couldn’t do it on my own. But I offered myself to God to love him through me. It was better this way, because God’s love is pure and healing. Forgiveness became a daily process and pain became the new pavement of my path.
Yet in the midst of all the pain and suffering, even Job knew that he would gaze on the beauty of the Lord once again. Through the suffering and tremendous shame, I also remembered the plans that God had for me. Sometimes its too dark to see and I don’t know what’s ahead. But I do know that when I cannot see my next step, that Daddy God is holding me closer and I am to trust him. He created all of me. He knew that this would hurt. But God also knew that I would come out of that suffering with more of him. His love carries us through the sorrows of life and his plans will be worth every tear.
I think of Abraham walking his son to the alter. In his childlike trust, the boy asked his father where was the lamb for the burnt offering? I can barely think of this story without shedding tears, it is heart breaking to imagine being in Abraham’s shoes.
Yet in his confidence in the goodness of God, he said, “The Lord himself will provide”. Abraham was fully persuaded that God loved him and would not hurt him.
When I compare how Abraham responded in the heat of that moment to how I have been a mother in desperation of God’s help…I had utterly failed. My soul would cry out and plead with God to help me. In fact it was much like a soul “scream”. Oh such little faith!
Did not God’s word say that he had plans for good and not for evil? (Jeremiah 29:11). In a quote by A.W. Tozer, he said,
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“Fear persists while we are subject to the will of someone who does not desire our well being, the moment we come under the protection of the one of good will, fear is cast out“.
Faith is believing what we cannot see. The ultimate test is the ability to have confidence in God’s intentional good plans for our life. Deep trust happens in surrendering our plans for God’s and believing that his plans our better than our own. Believe that he is a good father whose love goes into depths we cannot even imagine.
“What is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him?” Psalm 8:4. Every detail of your life is under the loving care of God.
The word of God is full of promises showing his good plans for our life. Those words are spirit and truth. Believing who God is for us by believing his word activates that miraculous power of God.
“We do God more honor by believing that he has said about himself and having the courage to come boldly to the throne of grace, than by hiding in self-conscious humility among the trees of the garden” (A.W. Tozer).
The entire past two years of my life have been so close to a nightmare. At night God would show me the plans that the enemy had against me, just like how he showed Elisha the plans of king Aram (2 Kings 6:12).
Each and every time that I saw these plans, I would place my trust in the tender care of God and pray that his will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Because God knew the plans he had for me, plans for good and not for evil. Every single time, the plans of the enemy were foiled and God turned another page of my story. In the end, it will be much like Cinderella. He gives beauty for ashes.
I encourage you today to take the trust fall with God. Be lifted in faith to believe that his plans for you are good. Then confidently surrender to the King of all Kings.
Let it be according to your will Oh God.
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